My brother

My brother popped by today. He's going on a business trip to India, needed to borrow the car to go buy goods at the local mall, and I decided to tag along with him to buy a pair of jeans. it was fun talking to him, too bad he was in such a rush and I sit here while I await dinner.

so much sibling rivalry but I feel as though most of it was due to my perception of things. to put it another way, so many of my problems are caused by my perception of things. anyway, it was just nice to hang out with him.

nothing new to report other than the fact thatI'm a bit anxious about work, but I'm doing better than before. I have to stop my six month cycle of being well, then crashing and ultimately ending up in the emergency room.

R

So I start working

yes. so I start working. after months of babbling about what I was going to do with my life, I now have an $8.50/h job at target. with thoughts of it still being "below" my abilities, I find it comforting that I'm returning to a place of normalcy and not being totally idle. being idle really numbs you and I've been like that for close to three years now.... though not overly enthu-sed, I welcome this new change and will go work four times a week.

a far cry from complete recovery though being a very big step for me.


outside of that, nothing has really changed. I play poker, I talk on and off with D, I keep in touch with my friends I met during partial hospitalization. I hope I'm inching towards independence.

R

sunday, sunday

sunday. the ryder cup is on, for the golf fans and europe dominated as usual. I had dinner with D last night. she's now shuffling three jobs and has had at least six over the past four months. I'm hoping she's alright as we ate chinese food during the jewish new year.

today I worked out and will probably go play poker at Ra's. nope my routine hasn't changed a bit. hopefully work will alter that but for the moment, I'm static as usual.

three hospitalizations in one year. I hope I never have another one. those things really suck and sets you back to point zero every single time.

so another normal sunday for me.
I kinda miss soccer and the world cup, since I don't really follow american football.

R

work!

for the past let's see...about six months, excluding a few of course, I've been blogging my guts out about bipolar and work outs. but today I have something more constructive to dish out. my father offered me a one day part tiem job to help him out at a convention he was running and so I worked for eight hours yesterday! wopee. first source of income in a year and a half. aaaaand I also was offered a part time job from none other than target, so hopefuly I'll be on my way on my $8.50 journey.


nothing has really changed yet, but I hope to be closer to normalcy once I start working and given that I pass target's piss test. (I had some ganja at B's three weeks ago so I'm a bit paranoid).

Oh, and I still do work out, but not as obsessively as I used to. I try to work out only for an hour and not drain myself completely day in and day out.

I hope everyone else is doing ok. and do I even have any readers left??

R

after two months, a post

well. I find myself back in bloggerland again. much has happened as I relapsed into mania and was hospitalized for about two weeks. turns out it was partially due to lithium overdose, which sucks and now all is better with my milder medication.

so much for the progress I was making, I'm back to square one.

(I also forgot my password into the site and hence the delay)

thankyou bluestbutterfly for your concern, I'm back and will write sporatically as my life is pretty monotonous at the moment. I'm looking for a part time job but nothing seems to pop up. I browse the net, I buy newspapers but nothing. I wonder if my resume kind of hinders me from being the proper applicant. the majority of my work experience is, afterall, in japan.


but I'm back and for the readers who have missed me I'm very sorry for the gap in posting.

stay well all.

R